beyond unexpected

I should be on a plane right now heading to Indonesia but instead I am in the hospital for the second time this week watching my sixth bag of IV fluids go into my veins. I am pregnant friends and I am really struggling believing this is for my good. I am desperately sick again.  Let me be clear: Hyperemesis is not morning sickness, it is morning sickness's distant a-hole cousin that has once again changed my life.  There are so simple answers.  All plans are on hold and our lives are consumed with getting through each day. I have no energy to even manage my image or pretend I feel differently about this than I do so forgive me if I offend.  So many of you have already reached out to us and reminded us we are not alone in this and I cannot thank you enough.  We are getting help and I have hope.  If I am am honest I know God's plans are always better for my life but I am really wrestling with Him in agreeing with this one.
Believing nothing is unexpected to Him,