Monday, April 30, 2007
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Thursday, April 26, 2007
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Sunday, April 22, 2007
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Saturday, April 21, 2007
One thing I miss about life before Annikah is us being able to sit down and have enlightening dinner conversation. We don't too much of that these days but at least if we cannot have enlightened we get rousing conversation!
Tonight Annikah had a lot of opinions at dinner. Here are a few of them.
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As this clip illustrates I just may be the worst camera woman trying to capture the most unstable subject.
NOTE: No bambinos were harmed in the making of this film
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Friday, April 20, 2007
Thanks to everyone for your concern about Annikah. She was doing much better yesterday and it seemed as we were over the worst part but today has been pretty rough so far. I think her ear is really hurting because she will scream for what seems like no reason. She did not sleep at all this morning and in general seems pretty miserable. Poor little girl. I do have to say she is an over achiever when it comes to being sick. Instead of just having croup and an ear infection she also got a diaper rash that quickly became so bad her little butt was bleeding. All at once! Thanks to fab Mommy friend Andrea who suggested a "magic" butt paste sold at Merz Apothecary in Lincoln Square her bootay is healing. I ventured out over there yesterday and made my way to the counter to ask if the salesperson knew if they had this magical diaper rash cream. Before I got 3 words out he ushered me over to the product explaining that it was a German cream that was their number one seller. Crazy! I see why as it has already helped so much (experienced Mommy friends rule!). She is sleeping now so hopefully the rest will help her to feel better. Luckily, it is so nice today so I think we will spend a lot of time outside this afternoon. Today will just be one of those days that not much will "get done" except for holding Anni and hoping she feels better soon. The saddest part is when she looks up at me with her teary eyes as if to say "Mama, help me." I am sure this is just one of many times in her life that I will not be able to fix it but at least we can tough it out together.
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Thursday, April 19, 2007
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Wednesday, April 18, 2007
My poor little baby is sick. She had a cough that has gotten worse over the last 2 days so yesterday I took her in to the pediatrician. Turns out she has croup (which I had no idea what that meant but is apparently a collection of symptoms that stink) and an ear infection. Her cough sounds like a dog barking and is so sad! She wants so much to be happy. Case in point: she was crying this morning after coughing but then caught a glimpse of the cat walking thru the kitchen and stopped mid-cry to clap her little hands. Precious.
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Tuesday, April 17, 2007
I really do not have the words to express anything remotely meaningful about yesterday's tragedy at Virginia Tech. I do know that I prayed for the families today and for any kids out there that feel so isolated and unloved that they would resort to such drastic and extreme violence. What struck me in a powerful way is that all the kids who died are someones son or daughter. This has new meaning to me now. I pray that those that are profoundly effected will find some peace amidst their grief.
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Yesterday a friend said to me"You've been a mom for a while, I need advice." What? I have? I still feel so new to this but then upon reflection decided that I have been at this for a while. I have learned so much over the last 7 1/2 months (with much to come). The learning curve after having a baby is huge, whether you are a quick learner or a slow study (like me). I have been journaling and processes this Mommy gig and decided to think about what I lost in becoming a Mom and what I have gained. I also have learned so much about myself. These lists, no doubt, will grow and change as I do but here is a start:
the ability to decide last minute to go to a movie or out to dinner
the way I usually travel, walking all day and staying up super late
working out whenever was convenient for me
deciding what to do today
calling in sick for work
seeing the kids I work with grow and change daily
peeing without an audience
wearing cute bras and fitting into my skinny jeans
being able to be irresponsible
not feeling guilty taking time for me
being the favorite person in the world for another little person
knowing you are needed
being privileged to watch Anni discover the world
sharing life with so many great Mommy friends
watching Jason as a Papa with Annikah and realizing it makes me love him more
being utterly entertained by a baby laughing
being more acutely awakened of the plight of mothers and kids in other parts of the world
getting to explore my neighborhood more and meet people
no more grade books or report card days
not being able to compartmentalize my life neatly but being stretched to really live what I believe
a challenge to rise to
slowing down my pace in life to take time for little thrills like watching Annikah learn how to clap
What I discovered about myself.....
I can no longer can hear about stories involving pregnant women and/or babies without a deep feeling of pain or joy
I can get excited about peeing and pooping (hers not mine :)
That being a mom ties you to so many other moms in meaningful ways
That i desperately crave time to myself but then spend much of that time missing Annikah
I appreciate my own Mom so much more
How long some days are and how others fly by
How impatient and short tempered I can be
How much I need to rely on God for strength and wisdom
How to set boundaries for my family
I actually can love a little person so much it hurts
How much more I appreciate God adopting me as His child
Little thrills in life are amazing
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Saturday, April 14, 2007
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Looks like Annikah made her decision about who to vote for: Gordon for the 49th ward!
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Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Yesterday we had a rough start to our day. Annikah woke up at 5am and would not go back to sleep so after 2 hours of screaming I was losing my mind. I actually felt angry at her. An emotion that I hate to admit I feel towards her sometimes. I know rationally that she is not screaming to irritate me and keep me from any restful sleep but in the moment it is hard to convince myself of this. I do not have the reputation for being the most rational person around and I swear that sometimes she calls up her little baby friends and they decide to all go in together on making their mamas nuts. I thought about the passage of scripture that says "do everything without complaining or arguing" and was convicted that too often I am quick to complain and slow to be patient. I am thankful for God's grace at times like this. I asked Annikah to forgive me for my impatience with her and even though she may not understand my words she looked up and smiled at me. After nursing her for an hour we both fell asleep in bed. When she got up we ate breakfast and started our day. As she was jumping in the bouncer and I was admittedly still feeling a little sorry for myself that I got no sleep and today would probably be hard for both of us I flipped on Oprah (a great mindless only one eye needed morning activity).
Turning on Oprah was the best thing I did that morning. The first guest was a couple that had sextuplets! That is right- a LITTER of kids. Just for an added challenge they also had an older son. They are the only surviving African American sextuplets in the world. I listened as the mother was very candid that having these 6 babies was a blessing but also made her question her sanity. She even breastfed all of them explaining that she was pumping over 50 bottles a day. Would there be time to even eat or shower? I might have given a few of them away on freecycle :)
They are precious 4 year olds now and so full of life. The show included a brief clip of their everyday life including a trip to the store. Can you imagine? Getting 7 kids in an SUV so big it might as well have been a bus and making sure they were all buckled in and no one is killing anyone else. I thought of my many days taking kids on field trips and thought it must be similar with one gigantic difference: her kids NEVER get picked up and go home! I feel overwhelmed just going grocery shopping with one baby. I know God gives you as much as you can handle. I am glad he knows me well. I looked over at Annikah happily jumping in her Jumperoo and decided that I was done feeling sorry for my minor inconvenience that morning.
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Sunday, April 8, 2007
Today we spent Easter at my parents' house in the burbs.
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Friday, April 6, 2007
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Annikah noticed Bonita (our cat) when she was around 2 months old. Before that she couldn't care less about her (really she did not care about much except boobs and being held). Once she realised this fast moving, soft and furry, noise making animal lived in her house she has been terrorising the poor creature. We captured a small portion of this on tape. Lest you think we are cruel to allow the cat to be subjected to Annikah notice that she can easily run away to any baby free areas of the house. But instead she stays and takes the abuse like a champ. The cat and Anni are actually buds. We cannot keep the cat out of the baby's room. In fact, the other day Annikah awoke early from a nap and when I rushed in to see why she was upset I found the cat sitting on the floor next to the blaring CD player, figure that one out?
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Thursday, April 5, 2007
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Wednesday, April 4, 2007
Sleep training has been rough but I am elated to announce that Annikah has now slept thru the entire night twice! I was fearful of sharing this news with you when it was only once as Jason and I were sure it was some freak accident that would never happen again. But she has two nights of sleeping 7pm until 7am under her belt (or diaper)! I admit I was starting to doubt that the sleep training or "training torture"(for both her and us) would ever help. In my desperate moments at night I really thought I would still be getting up with her around the same time she goes to Kindergarten and gets her drivers license but praise God I was wrong. She is so much happier during the day (and so is her Mama)! Jason prayed the other day for us and asked God to help us have wisdom and for Annikah that she would be able to sleep peacefully. It seems like such a small thing but God answered and we are grateful. Now, I know there will be setbacks but for now at least we are rejoicing in our happy sleeping monkey!
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Monday, April 2, 2007
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