Thursday, March 14, 2013

beyond unexpected

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I should be on a plane right now heading to Indonesia but instead I am in the hospital for the second time this week watching my sixth bag of IV fluids go into my veins. I am pregnant friends and I am really struggling believing this is for my good. I am desperately sick again.  Let me be clear: Hyperemesis is not morning sickness, it is morning sickness's distant a-hole cousin that has once again changed my life.  There are so simple answers.  All plans are on hold and our lives are consumed with getting through each day. I have no energy to even manage my image or pretend I feel differently about this than I do so forgive me if I offend.  So many of you have already reached out to us and reminded us we are not alone in this and I cannot thank you enough.  We are getting help and I have hope.  If I am am honest I know God's plans are always better for my life but I am really wrestling with Him in agreeing with this one.
Believing nothing is unexpected to Him,
  RoxanneSignature

7 comments:

Leah said...

I hear you, Roxanne... :(

Susan Lauer said...

Roxanne, thank you for being transparent. That is a great gift to all involved and will be the catalyst for growth and life. I'm praying for you, Jason, and the girls. Love, Susan

Lora said...

praying for you!!

Andrea {kerubo mama} said...

Oh goodness, girl!! Praying for you, your health, that tiny babe, your family, your future. Praying for peace that surpasses all understanding. Hugs to you!!! (and congratulations!!) xo

Janet Rose said...

Praying for you!

Jess said...

Wow. I will be praying friend--for strength and endurance that can only come from Him. I pray you will feel His presence in ways you could never imagine. I have another friend going through this right now, and another that did several years ago with both her girls. I've gained new insight into how hard, horrible, helpless this condition is and my heart goes out to you. God does know, and His purpose is greater, even though it may be hard to see. I'll also be uplifting that little babe, and your precious family during this time--for understanding for the girls, and for peace for Jason. You will no doubt have days ahead where you will feel you cannot take it anymore. Cling to Jesus. Much love to you.

Brittany said...

Hi dear! Just wanted to let you know that we are praying for you! If there is anything we can do from this side of the world please let us know!
Congrats on a new little blessing!