Sunday, August 7, 2011

blick....

...pretty much sums up how I am feeling today. Maybe it is the ongoing stomach bug I have been dealing with for over a week that has me feeling weak and dizzy. Maybe it is that I was pulled over and yelled at by the police yesterday (for talking on my phone which may or may not be a real law here) and got my license taken away now have to go to court tomorrow with both my kids and deal with the corruption and total unknown. Maybe it is because the power situation has been crazy bad as of late. Maybe it is because my hubby left a few hours ago and will be gone for almost 2 weeks and us girlies will be here during Ramadan all by our lonesome. Maybe it is because I am holding onto to worry and fear about our adoption situation. So many things weighing me down. Like so much is out of my control. It is all swirling and making me feel unsettled and weepy. But a good reminder that I am never really in control and a chance to chose to sigh, cry (always), pray, and just be and let Him take care of the rest.
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And before Jason left we had a couple of great days as a family and this self take makes joy swell within me and I will focus on that tonight. Because as always I have so much to grateful for and I can chose to say "Thank you" even amidst circumstances I would not choose and situations I do not understand. I can chose trust and thankfulness.

But giving thanks is a sacrifice that truly honors me.
If you keep to my path,
I will reveal to you the salvation of God. Psalm 50:23

6 comments:

Doro said...

I heard just recently a very good sermon again about this verse - giving thanks as a sacrifice.
Thanks for coming today - was a great time and good to know now, what to pray for.
hugs

Gma Rho said...

Having your hubby gone for TWO WEEKS especially during Ramadan would bring anyone down. Randy preached a good sermon today on depression - the first in a series of two. If you have time, maybe listening to that would encourage you. I'll pray for your court appearance tomorrow! God bless! Hugs . . .

sarah said...

love to you, dear friend! sending my most supportive energy from afar!

Ms. Maila said...

Hey Roxanne, I wish I could get on a plane and just be there with you. I am praying for you and know that you are a strong woman, God has you in his hands.
Love,
Maila

jkww said...

love you, girlie. Praying and then praying some more for you.

Anonymous said...

Eucharisteo!
Maureen